You just be your own boss...

Well you know there are some really wise people out there in our world and sometimes we only have to look in the mirror to find them! Sometimes it takes time to sift through the crap to really see what it is that we want to do...

Have decided that when it comes to having a family, that it will happen in it's own sweet time. You cant rush Mother Nature!

As far as ambulance work is concerned...I have started doing some shifts at another station that is busier and I love it. It is great to finally being able to put the things that I am learning into practice. You can have all the knowledge in the world but unless you get to use it, it is useless.

We are now looking forward to honeymoon holiday in a couple of weeks. Cant believe that it is hear so soon, as it seemed just the other day that we were planning on where we were going to go.

Mum and Dad M will be back in 2 Sundays. They are having fun, as we have heard from them via email. Will be great to go through Dads million of photos when they get back. Thank goodness we are leaving for our trip only 2 days later! haha! Love you Dad!

We are off for dinner in a moment. Better go and get ready so I dont hold up Farmer Brown!

xx

Decisions, decisions...

Man it can be so hard to know what is the right decision for you. Confusion and indecision is hard to deal with sometimes.

I really want to do my Ambulance but on the other had I would like to have a family with my husband. Now seems the right time to do that as we are both getting older and I don't like the idea of being a mother in my 40's.

Ambulance has been challenging to say the least of late. Hard to know what to do there. When I am busy on duty it is fantastic but when there is a lot of down time it can be really hard to stay motivated.

After coming back from the course today it is easy to become inspired all over again, and then chatting with my peers afterwards, hearing that some of them are experiencing the same things as me, makes me feel not so alone.

I think that one thing at a time is the way to go. At the moment I am doing my studies and if I happen to get pregnant in the future, well that will become the new path for my little family!

Having a break from my own station has been great, as it has allowed my time to step back and re-evaluate my situation. It is hard to do things on your own, so I guess what I am saying is that I need to make the effort to reach out to do what it is that I want to do. I don't have to do this on my own, there are people out there that can help me and want to help me.

I guess the most important thing to do is to stay true to myself...