Decisions, decisions...

Man it can be so hard to know what is the right decision for you. Confusion and indecision is hard to deal with sometimes.

I really want to do my Ambulance but on the other had I would like to have a family with my husband. Now seems the right time to do that as we are both getting older and I don't like the idea of being a mother in my 40's.

Ambulance has been challenging to say the least of late. Hard to know what to do there. When I am busy on duty it is fantastic but when there is a lot of down time it can be really hard to stay motivated.

After coming back from the course today it is easy to become inspired all over again, and then chatting with my peers afterwards, hearing that some of them are experiencing the same things as me, makes me feel not so alone.

I think that one thing at a time is the way to go. At the moment I am doing my studies and if I happen to get pregnant in the future, well that will become the new path for my little family!

Having a break from my own station has been great, as it has allowed my time to step back and re-evaluate my situation. It is hard to do things on your own, so I guess what I am saying is that I need to make the effort to reach out to do what it is that I want to do. I don't have to do this on my own, there are people out there that can help me and want to help me.

I guess the most important thing to do is to stay true to myself...